Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain erupted behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, like lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with severe pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like several causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Amanda Estrada
Amanda Estrada

Marco is an archaeologist and historian specializing in Roman antiquity, with over 15 years of experience in excavating and studying Pompeii's artifacts.